The fact that your happiness is always depending on third parties, is a situation to be worried about. You depend a lot on other people and it is time for you to realize that your true happiness lays whithin you. You need absolutely no one else to make your dreams come true. You are stronger than you think. Confidence is all you need!
you should not fall for the beauty of the wrapping; you should take a look to what lays inside. That person that you have been thinking a lot is not the best for you.