Choose well the people that need to be part of your circle and who is out of it. You can explain everything you want to those who you are true friends.
You have a really good future if you really want it. YOu just need to believe in you and in your ability to do what you want. You have all what you need.
More than a partner you have a sexual object. If you only want her to spend sometim with her, it is best for you to say it clearly to her.